I Was Raped By A Demon: My Journey From Sex Addiction to Freedom
The Unseen Battle: Sexual Bondage in Christian Lives
Many Christians struggle silently with sexual bondage, unable to understand why prayer, accountability, and willpower aren't enough to break free from pornography, masturbation, and sexual sin. According to Bobbi Kumari, fashion designer, teacher, author, and founder of Living in Light, this battle extends beyond the physical realm.
"At the root of a sexual addiction or bondage is almost always a spiritual stronghold," Kumari explains in her powerful interview on the
"Until we understand the covenant nature of sex and the spiritual dimensions at play, we remain vulnerable to cycles of shame and repeated failure."
From Hindu Rituals to Demonic Attack: Bobbi's Testimony
Raised in a Hindu home surrounded by idol worship and occult practices, Bobbi experienced sexual abuse as a child. This combination of factors opened spiritual doorways that would affect her for years to come.
"That door had been opened in my life because of the sexual abuse... and because sexuality had been awakened at a young age in such an illicit way," Kumari shares. "This opened the door to the enemy."
Despite becoming a Christian at age 12, Bobbi lived a double life of church attendance and sexual promiscuity that eventually led to a full rejection of her faith, followed by years of substance abuse, multiple abortions, and increasingly risky behavior.
The turning point came through what she describes as a demonic sexual attack where she experienced "waves of tormenting orgasm" while feeling something that "hates me having sex with me." During this terrifying encounter, God revealed that this was the same spirit she had been chasing through her years of rebellion.
Understanding Soul Ties: The Covenant Nature of Sex
One of the most enlightening portions of the interview explores the biblical understanding of sexual soul ties:
"Sex is a blood covenant," Kumari explains. "When a husband and wife have sex for the first time, the hymen breaks, blood is shed, and that cuts a blood covenant between the man and the woman. They are now bound together for life."
This covenant aspect of sex means that spiritual connections are formed during every sexual encounter, whether inside or outside of marriage. These "soul ties" create spiritual pathways that can lead to ongoing bondage, even years after the physical relationship has ended.
"We are in a blood covenant with everyone we have sex with," says Kumari. "This is why sex is so sacred - because it's the very symbol of what Jesus did on the cross for us."
Breaking Free: The Process of Sexual Deliverance
For those seeking freedom, Kumari outlines a comprehensive approach to breaking sexual bondage:
- True Repentance: "The first thing is to have a heart that is broken before the Lord, filled with godly sorrow that actually truly wants to repent and see change."
- Breaking Soul Ties: "We would break off the soul ties for every single person we have slept with or had any kind of emotional entanglement with."
- Demolishing Strongholds: "For every stronghold you demolish, that is a lie you are dismantling in your life."
- Mind Renewal: "The only way to truly dismantle that lie is by believing the truth... by understanding God's design for love, God's design for your value, God's design for your sexuality."
Kumari has led individuals through breaking soul ties with as many as 300 sexual partners, emphasizing that God brings to mind whoever needs to be included in this process of liberation.
Healing from Sexual Abuse
For survivors of sexual abuse, Kumari offers a compassionate perspective: "No one wants anyone to have to revisit that trauma of abuse... However, understanding how that abuse would have affected you is super helpful."
She emphasizes the importance of breaking soul ties even with abusers: "The enemy is no respecter of scenario. Like he's a legalist. And so he's still going to get a foothold whether you consented or not."
The True Answer: Intimacy with Christ
Perhaps the most transformative aspect of Kumari's message is her emphasis on intimate relationship with Jesus as the ultimate answer to sexual brokenness:
"Lust is essentially us trying to meet a legal desire in an illegal way," Kumari states. "When we have a true relationship with the Lord, we understand that God is good and that he's the one who has given us our sexual desires."
She personally testifies to living 18 years without sex, finding complete fulfillment in her relationship with Christ: "The reason why it's so easy not to have sex for the last 18 years is because I'm in this glorious intimate relationship with the Lord where my desires are being met in Him."
Final Encouragement: God's Design is Supreme
Kumari concludes with an encouraging reminder of God's goodness in the area of sexuality:
"God is so good and so kind and brilliant, and everything He does is rooted in love. So His design for sex and sexuality is rooted in His absolute brilliance, love, and wisdom. If we are willing to trust Him with our sexuality and with our desires, He will not disappoint us."